baby, baby, you want to eat all the time, you keeping me really busy, i have learned to do many things with you attached to me, like lighting up the gas by pressing the knob with my knee, while holding you in my arms with one hand and holding the lighter with the other but…typing with one hand takes far too long so you will have to wait a bit.

luckily the keyboard works thanks to your genial dad who fixed it after i spilt a bottle if breast milk trying to multitask – feed you, breast pump some milk for later and emailing all at the same time

well i learned my lesson

just two quick notes, may extrapolate later

1. you now spent first few hours away from home with mama Here and aunty Kirsten who really wanted to babysit you (when they visited they also pleaded with me to let them change your nappy, imagine). I have to say as soon as i was driving away from their home i sort of regretted and felt so empty without you. we did need some time alone though, there was a lot to catch up on, we had very little time together in peace since you were born- one month so we celebrated every moment but then loved having you back in our arms

2. when you will be thinking of having a little rascal like you yourself – just…do it right. just read something on a forum where mum is asking how to make baby stop crying at night because her husband is getting really mad at..HER when the baby wakes them up. How sad.

Think of it sweetheart. choose right- from the start. Is it not better to be with a man who wants to have baby’s cot on his side of the bed so he can put the baby on your breast when wakes up to be fed at night, one who will not let you get up to change a nappy when he is there, when you try to get the baby yourself before starts crying not to wake him up he tells you he likes waking up with you anyway, even if he cannot save you waking up at least half way, he can cuddle you better, tell you he loves you and kiss your back when you are breastfeeding little bubs.

I am so incredibly lucky …and in LOVE!