My baby girl, finally we hold you in our arms. You are so so beautiful. we asked maybe it is just us, parents so in love with their baby would obviously think so but I think it’s true, you are gorgeous, sweet and innocent…

There is that love completely new inside me and I can hardly contain it. I feel like in heaven.

I started writing for you telling you what has happened and how i feel but this may take a while, at the moment I am exhausted and my wounds still did not heal so it is painful to sit for long but there is so many people waiting to see you and hold you in their arms, our families are so happy and supportive and wonderful that this flow of love is just overwhelming. Your polish grandma got just one photo and she kept going and looking at it over and over again and showing it to everyone.  How many times can you make people look at the same photo?

So i will put just a few photos now for your wonderful carrying and loving ohana. it turned out your ohana is so big and includes also many new friends here on the island. You are a blessed child baby girl and I hope we can give you the best we can and we can make you always happy. Truly and deeply happy with happiness that comes from having happy parents who are in love with each other, who, even if sometimes may seem strict or demanding of you will always have you in their heart and your best interest in their mind, happy because you know so many people love you care for you, happy because you understand the world and appreciate things, happy because we taught you how to love. not only how to receive love or even repay love but how to love unconditionally weather someone loves you back or not.  this is what you already taught me. the very first lesson your mama received from her little coreczka, you opened the whole new world for me, thank you baby, you don’t even know how much you have already done with just your presence.

I am sorry if I gave you some pain at birth, I am sorry i couldn’t push harder, but now you are so happy and content, you quickly managed to show us when you cry because you are hungry and when because your nappy needs changing, you eat a lot and then fall asleep by my side, cuddled into my breasts you just drunk from and filling them with love

here you are baby girl