hey Little One

This was a busy day at my work. Moi – Your mum has been working for the last few weeks in Te Vara Nui Village, in marketing. So here I am still at my desk. I have thought of you and daddy a lot today but had hardly time to speak to your dad on the phone,  twice but short. Now i am running to Zumba, hope you won’t mind a bit of swinging. you have been such a good baby, not causing me any trouble at all apart from making my usually flat tummy swell already to the size of a basketball.

Ok so Zumba today with me my little one. You have done so much already not being out of me yet. We did some swimming with whales together in tahiti and diving in Rarotonga, we have been to Europe with Dad, Berlin, Poznan my hometown which your dad loved, Salzburg just for one day and you have tried sauna and steambath there although i don’t think it made any difference to you, if so you did not say a word or kick any part of me, and we have been to Ljubljana together, spent two fantastic nights in a jail hostel, converted from an old prison, just next door to 7 illegal clubs and spacious yard decorated with some awesome street art, grafitti and installations.

Miss your dad and looking forward to see him after my Zumba, he was bit down recently because of my problems with visa and immi and few other things. He is taking everything in and worries far too much so when you are bigger you should take care of him and not let him worry much. You know once someone said if things seem bad just think about yourself and your life in two years time and ask yourself a question if these things will still matter then. if not, well everything is passing and changing and things can’t be just good and smooth all the time as we would get spoiled and not only never expect or cope with anything difiicult but probably not even appreciate the easy life we have.  So let’s face the harsh reality with a big smile, the most important things are there, your Dad and you and i am so happy.

The problem, is your dad sometimes do all the worries for me too, I am the crazy and sometimes irresponsible one and I just trust in the end everything will turn put ok.  This is probably the biggest difference that me and marcus have to learn to deal with.  i may sometimes seem careless to him but then if i took everything in just like he does I would not be here today because the life put me through some really harsh trials.  some of them just before i met Marcus and so now i see these things so different and it is not even two years yet, not even a year.  I now know that i had to go through it to end up where iam now and i couldn’t be more happy anywhere else so it was well worth it.

So let me take you to the Zumba now and then home and into dad’s arms and i know we can make him feel better soon and can’t wait to do it

I love you lots
Mum